Tuesday 16 November 2010

Turbulence en route to Nowhere.



It’s a fucking genuinely enlightening experience. Waking up in the morning and for that one split second, you have no idea where you are. Okay, the menu on the right side table tells me we’re not in Delhi, it’s a guest house in Chandigarh: we’re off to a fabulous start. There’s somebody singing in the shower. Also brilliant, i’m not alone in this memorable experience. My mouth’s minty, which not only means that I was neurotic enough in my habit to brush my teeth last night, but points more to the fact that it wasn’t so long ago that I did brush them. I did change too – I’m wearing pyjamas. So far we’re doing great. There’s a white shirt and a black v-neck sweater hanging off the chair next to me. Doesn’t look like something I’d wear, but then I forgot my suit in Delhi – so I ended up spending half of what I earned at the gig last night buying those two things. I did look good though. “New York Pretty Chique-Boy”, that’s what my drummer was kind enough to suggest – where I’m flattering myself is, with the ‘-que’. I believe he was going for chick. It works for me, I guess.

The gig was fun enough, but not for it’s playing. The perfect sound, with the perfect venue and just a lot of a communication breakdown. The cues were all over the place and every one was pretty confused. Well, I was making a mess. In any case, right now I just couldn’t be fucked. On the other hand, the bass tone was beyond divine. It was the kind of tone that reminded me why I play the instrument I do. It was an outdoor gig, so on appearance: It was cold and all the trees were lit up with small white lights. It was foggy and it was beautiful. The crowd was pretty receptive and if not receptive, really attractive. The pianist we were playing with was kind enough to clarify that this was a very classy gig. Man, Punjabi women. I’m from Delhi – and I may harbour some false notions about seeking intellect, but fuck it, this is beyond a soft spot. I talked to a few women last night – but at these weddings and parties it’s like being in the middle of a jungle. It’s all out Darwin.

I digress.

Back to the room. I’m obviously more than hungover. Mostly because I’m still a little high. There’s more than two bottles of white wine in my system and more than a couple of shooters. I never take shots. I guess I was on vacation last night. The edges of my eyes are still vibrating. Lets see, my wallet’s still around. What comes next? It’s funny, it’s always the cellular phone. I’m convinced that I’ve lost it. I roll out of bed and I can barely stand. I check the bass, my backpack and the table. No sign of it – anywhere. I try calling it – no luck. I check my skinnies’ pockets, nope. It’s funny how the only thing that’s bothering me is the idea of invasion of privacy. I finally move the blankets and there it is, in all it’s black cold metal. I suddenly feel sick – and it’s not the alcohol. I walked in at round about 5 in the morning, swayed in is more accurate – packed away my bass with the love it deserves, changed my clothes, brushed my teeth and picked up my phone and fell asleep with it on the other side of my pillow. Something about this doesn’t click for me. I’m not this person.       

My body and mind feels like they’re broken. Maybe it’s from drinking and dancing last night – but it’s probably from the past week. Drift usually rehearses about 4 days a week – and the schedule’s been pretty consistent for a few months now – since August to be accurate. This particular week, we got ourselves a perfect score card. Morning rehearsals Monday through Friday followed by four days and four performances. Friday and Saturday at the aman, Sunday at the Polo grounds with Nicolas and finally Monday at Chandigarh. 

Sunday is worth mentioning because I got to do and see a lot of things I hadn’t seen and done before. For starters, I’d never been near a polo ground – leave alone watched a match. I now know the rules of polo – it’s like very-up market football. The funny thing is the teams switch goal sides every time some one scores – I don’t know why though. I imagine it can be disorienting if you’re having a spaced out day – but then I imagine people don’t day dream much on charging horses. Speaking of which, I got to see a lot of horses really up close – that’s something. They have really big eyes and I like that. The crowds that turn up for these things are well, pretty self-explanatorily, the crowds that turn up for these things. I did see a guy who looked like a very colour blind and pimped out Chick Corea. The actual playing time was somewhere around ten minutes. You could call the sound system awful – but that would presuppose the existence of a sound system. I basically got handed a 50-foot cable and was told to go stand on the field with Nicolas.

When we finally had to play – it became all about latency. I played one note and then I heard a flanger-overdriven-distorted sort of sound blare out of the speaker just about one or two seconds later. It was more than  a disaster. I played through the track we were doing but it really didn’t make any sense, after a while there was just no sound, so Nicolas played moreorless accompanied. It was a bit sad because there were quite few people who did huddle up around us to watch. I don’t think I’ve ever sounded worse in my life. Faulty cables. 

It’s strange because slowly all of my instincts are telling me to pack up and fuck off. I need to wash this all off. The bad-tones, the shaky playing, the masters with it’s uncanny ability to sneak up on me. It’s probably just cumulative ‘something’, but I feel like there’s a layer of dirt on my general perception and I’m begging for clarity. In any case, I’m grounded for the next two months or more, on account of playing and more so, because of the masters semester final exams which are coming up in a little under two and a half weeks.

Detergent anybody?

 

Saturday 13 November 2010

Up, Down (And if I'm in the mood) Maybe Round and Round.

I think the deal with studying Philosophy and pretty much any other non-technical subject, is that you ought to take it seriously, but never too seriously. Retrospectively speaking, when I was doing my bachelors, my premature understanding of the same idea, was something I was pretty kicked about. On one hand, I was genuinely interested and open to being affected by it. On the other hand though: I really tried my best, to keep from using it to fill a vacuum in my life – or the spaces that were the deficiencies of my personality. Think of it as the contrast between, “I study philosophy” and “I: study philosophy”. There was enough of the latter going around me.  Still is, actually. The only thing that’s probably changed now, is that I take most of the philosophy I’m exposed to as either for granted or as being uninteresting. I would place jazz at the centre of myself at times, but that too wearily as I don’t have that enlightened and intimate a connection with the art form (yet?) and the moments of it I may or may not experience are fleeting at best.

I figure if there are perceived spaces in your life, there’s really no point trying to fill them with things. People, places, arts whatever – its about coming to peace with the gap, or re-arranging yourself, till it’s not there.

I digress though. What I meant to bring up was something that’s been on my mind lately – and was further consolidated yesterday morning, when Nicolas used the same phrase and arrangement of words. He was talking about how he feels he needs to return to a healthier, more focused and concentrated lifestyle – and how circumstances at present are seemingly unconducive to the same.

More relevant: being the accompanying sensation that life is cyclical – and the best that one can really do (to a certain degree) is ride the wave with some amount of style and hopefully have it, if it’s a good one, last as long as it can or, hold it together – if it’s a not-so hot wave.

I don’t mean to sound fatalistic about the whole thing – it’s not that there’s no control. You can alleviate the symptoms and consolidate yourself – and when you get good at It – you can almost ignore the cycle, but there’s not much you can do to the cycle itself. There’s no forcing it in either direction. The reason why I brought up Philosophy at all, was because a lot of the Buddhism we studied talked about the cyclical nature of life – both in terms of practical every day material and in a larger overbearing metaphysical sense (though I am pulling this out of context just a little).

I think this was a big reason why Indian Philosophy got so popular and managed to find its way into the self-help and spirituality sections of Barnes and Noble & Borders and co. It’s very coping oriented. There’s just enough metaphysical abstract content to satiate the average western spiritually-starved mind; but yet enough practical how-to-deal content that just sounds like good advice.

How to navigate around every day muck: Negative thoughts, sensations of isolation, anger, temptation and so on. 

Returning to the idea of cyclical phases of life – what could one be talking about? Well generally the understanding that on the broadest level: there are positive phases and negative ones. More specifically, the breakdown can go on. Phases of exhaustion; of freshness; of optimism; of creativity; of self deprecation; of motivation; of demotivation and so on.

What’s on my mind, is just a little stranger though. For me, the question seems to present itself at the stage where you’re firm with your understanding and perception of life as being in cycles but you become too familiar and you just don’t feel like directly engaging with them any more (by virtue of the fact that they are cycles).

I understand living in the moment – and the family of accompanying one line gems like, “It’s not the destination, it’s the journey” – but sometimes, you just want to say, “Hey man, I’ve seen this movie before. I know how it goes”.

Not to rob life of it’s element of surprise – we all know chance can go out of it’s way to sideline you, when you’re just sitting around on that Tuesday afternoon, but in a more retracted sense – the motions can get pretty mundane (?). No matter how exciting the content of your experience is.

The only bailout here, really is just that though: experience. The idea that as an active and passive agent engaging in perception and undergoing change, in the cycles of life, you will experience – see, touch, taste, feel – things that give you the sensation of a fuller existence.

That’s the gamble I guess.

On lighter notes: I had something happen to me last night that probably best provides insight into the failing connection between the movies and real life. I was driving back home from the gig last night and it must’ve been round about 1am and as I took the turn for the house, there was this gorgeous but slightly scruffy and old retriever just standing on the corner of the road – looking very lost. It was a really cold and some what foggy night. You couldn’t see great – but as far as I could tell, it was on it’s own.

I thought about it for a second and stopped the car moreorless in the middle of the road and walked upto it. The dog was a real sweetheart and I played with it for atleast a minute - and then out of nowhere, this girl on her phone (with her mum about 10 yards behind her) pops up looking very worried – not for her dog, but more so by the creepy dog-napper/possible rapist who’d abandoned his car open in the middle of the road. I didn’t really bother saying much, since her mum was freaking out from behind those 10 yards (not that she herself was particularly keen on 1.15am conversation). So much for my serendipitous engagement. I was even dressed well. What do you know.

Hm. I’m playing jazz-duo with Nicolas during the break of a polo match in a couple of hours today. This is up at the Jaipur polo-ground, which happen to be in Delhi, but I’m still clueless as to it’s whereabouts. So I should spend sometime on Google earth figuring it out. Should be interesting.


Lets hope experience compensates.


On a smaller and more self-promotional note: Drift will start playing live jazz at Baci (in Sunder Nagar Market) as of the 18th of this month - which is a Thursday. As far as I know - we will be playing every thursday for the course of this month. The venue is a very warm cafe and the gig's will be fully acoustic and intimate. I hope and expect to see a lot of you there.


Saturday 30 October 2010

Meditation at Dawn

Meditations at dawn – that’s what I’m going to call the first decent jazz head I write. Until then, it will have to suffice as the title of this little humble post. Recently has been entertaining – mostly in content and - insofar as it has been exhausting and blurry, it has come with it’s own intoxication. Lately I feel like I can draw a straight line through rehearsing for Nepal, playing in Nepal, going to Bombay, coming back from Bombay, studying for tests, giving tests, playing more - and right upto the present moment and yet feel like all of it happened to somebody else. 

It is, at the moment, just about dawn – it would be a shame, if it wasn’t. It’s not that I’m not tired or I can’t sleep – but for some reason, I don’t really feel like putting much space between the day that started sometime yesterday and waking up and starting again later today. The weird hang-ups people have. What doesn’t help the entire situation however, it my acoustic-habituation of the fan.

The regulator knob is busted – and by busted I mean the fan is only working on two settings. The first being ‘dead without motion’ and the second, even more popular I might add, being ‘Cessna light-aircraft propeller’. It’s a really cold night and it’s been a pretty good night. We played a decent set at the Aman – ended late and then headed out to TLR 

for a little while, to check out their Halloween scene – ended up staying till 4am and finally got back and chilled (literally) out on the roof at home, listening to Miles Davis and drinking beer. It sounds contrived, but after a point personal satisfaction, is more than, if not the only key.

Tonight was probably the first night in months that I got out. Nicolas was kind enough to give me company on it – but I think somewhere he needed it, as much as I did. It felt so stran

ge being in the middle of large social scene. You just forget what it’s like. There’s no two ways about, I’d rather play than do anything else, but sometimes, new people just afford you an instant booster shot of fresh perspective. Half the time they don’t even know it – sometimes, you’re the one administering the shot and even you don’t know it. Sometimes it's just fictional clarity. In any case, "whatever makes us happy" - says Pranai.

In other news, my new double bass gets here from Bombay sometime this week. It will be the latest addition to the house. Shortly after which, I’m getting a cat.

Life is good.

 

 

 

 

Friday 8 October 2010

Kathmandu Journal.

Kathmandu Day 1 – 2:

 

We all got to the airport in Delhi on time and things ran pretty smoothly – insofar as getting a cab on the 2nd of October, getting all the equipment – including the monster bass case – checked into the plane. It was the first time I saw the inside of the new terminal – it looks pretty good and reminds me of some of the airports outside. The pilot took the plane off like it was a roller coaster – we all got nailed down to our seats and slammed back into them. Landing was a swerving disaster too – but we’re all here and alive. The things we all take for granted. 

Things started getting fuzzy when we reached Kathmandu airport. Though the bass case and guitars came out first (and now I can say unharmed) – a couple of the bags took about half an hour to show up. They probably came out in the last burst of luggage on the belt. It also took us a while to find our ride – because though he had a sign board for us, the words ‘Drift’ were written on it as the same size of this font.

We’re staying at the Kathmandu Jazz Conservatory staff faculty area. The conservatory itself on the fourth floor of a pretty massive building – with sound proof rooms for a fully equipped recording studio, a piano room, a drum room – and a few more practice rooms. The other floors in the building are for actors, adventure sports and artists. It’s like an oasis in the middle of the city.

I met another double bassist here called Ian – who is a 24 year old American – teaching at the conservatory. He’s been playing for about 11/12 odd years and apparently started a fund back to home to ship two double basses to the conservatory – all the way from the states. The whole exercise cost him a little over $3000 – and a lot of energy. He’s really good on the bass and maybe I can sit with home and pick up something while I’m here.

The first hiccup shortly presented itself: with all the bags and equipment switching hands at the arrival – Reuben forgot his cymbal bag at the airport. Our gig was supposed to start in about 45 minutes. He and Pranai darted back for the airport while me and Nicolas headed to our venue – it was called House of Music.

It was a nice venue – and I’ll put up some pictures eventually – but the gig left me feeling pretty low. My amp blew a fuse and I was plugged in direct through the mixer into these odd speakers. Playing at the Aman has really ruined us, insofar as it affords us a consistency that musicians don’t really have, unless they carry all their equipment to every show (we have our own mixer and speakers there). All in all though, my tone was the complete opposite  of anything I wanted it to be. It sounded ugly, twangy, hollow and the clincher: really out of the control-loud. The crowd that came up was on the smaller side but it was full of musicians. What a night.

I spent most of the morning with Nicolas checking out the conservatory – and practicing alone. In the afternoon, every body headed to to Darbar and Thalem – two of the four major districts that Kathmandu is made up of. Sunday is a working day in Nepal – so things were pretty chaotic and it was a real sensory overload. The line between pedestrian walkway and motor-road dissolves to negligible in Kathmandu. For the most part, those two markets had a similar setting to a lot of the places I’ve seen up in Shillong, Darjeeling and maybe Varanasi. Narrow roads, with shops on either side and a lot of people (and in this case cars and bikes) walking through. We left home around 12.30/1 and got back at 5. We all got back wiped out.

So far the schedule slots us in (give or take one night) for a gig every night we’re here. Tonight’s going to be at much more crowded jazz venue – attached to the conservatory. One of the faculty’s saxophonists is leaving – so it’s his farewell.

There are a couple of other bands playing – and the crowd’s going to be full of musicians. I think somewhere, every body feels the pressure – but it comes out differently. I’m not thinking about it much – but it’s interesting how it works.

 

Lets see how tonight goes.

 

 

Kathmandu Day 2-3

 

Last night had all the makings of a great gig – and it was a hell of a night. It was one of the few times, with Delhi being the way it is, that we played infront of a packed room of listeners. The only two other times being our first gig at the India habitat center and the second at tlr – but still, it was nothing like either of them.

The venue was called Moksh and it was this great French-windowed joint that faces out to a garden and looks like something out of a European movie. Enough can’t be said about the performing area  - which was in a separate room. The stage was placed, sunken in the middle – below the floor – and the seating area was raised about a foot around it, with couches everywhere. 

There was a lot of advertising and Drift probably got it’s biggest ad in a main paper. A whole bunch of bands played – I think about four of them in all – and they were burning the place down. The amount of talent here is crazy – there is a solid culture for music that has developed, according to Pranai, over the last couple of years -  and I think all four of us were overwhelmed by it. For me, the clincher will always be in the fact that, obviously – not as a rule of nature – but, generally the more talented they got, the nicer guys they were. I’m playing with the idea of coming back here after my Masters finishes next year – and spending a few months studying/playing before heading out to Boston.

Yesterday night was really something for me – because I chose to play out our entire set on one of the double basses that the Jazz conservatory flew in. It was a great ¾ lemur model and even though there were points during a few of the uptempo numbers – and one of the ballads (where each note sticks out) – that I felt like I should have thought twice about it – it felt great. Great to just play one and great to just feel like I still can. The yamaha’s been really good to me and i’m glad it’s keeping me in shape.

Last night was also exceptional for the band. It was interesting to see how there was this inevitable form of performance pressure that we don’t usually need to or have to deal with. There was a big crowd, more than half of them musicians and music teachers listening very intently; there were a lot of very fucking good bands (all of them professionals and this isn’t me being self-depricating – just factual. Those guys were there) – and all of them going on before us making us the final act. There were some insane bass players playing too – guys who’ve been doing it for ten, fifteen to twenty years of their lives, whose comfort with music and instrument I can only hope to mimic eventually – watching them felt great but the idea of going on after them – was hard not to pay attention to. Comparison can feel like suicide.

Anyway, I could go on forever – about talent, time, practice. I call it the eternal gamble – you just have to bet on whether it’s just all talent and if you don’t have it at the very start there’s no point - OR – whether it’s maybe some predisposition but it’s more experience and practice and fundamentally: time. The idea that enough time will take you there and will afford you that level of playing – and there isn’t any other way, to really find out, that following it up.

Our set wasn’t that hot, insofar as how well we could have played it – but the fact of the matter is, the crowd loved it. There were people screaming, going crazy – there was a latin dancer dancing; and after we got off stage, we were swamped. One guy told us he hadn’t danced in 6 months – and another one told us we took him to heaven and back. Spiritual rejuvenation in one quick night. Not bad at all, if you ask me. I really feel like it was one of those sets where the four of us, got off stage feeling a little off – but literally, an hour and a half of people coming upto us later, we couldn’t not feel good about it.

There is a real lesson in self-comfort and self-acceptance here. I think I am, infact maybe we all are, getting a crash course in it. It is a hard and somewhat painful one.

 All said and done though – accept my deliberate inarticulateness – there is a lot lot lot lot of love here. There is an inherent string of humility, a solid vibe and culture that runs through most of the musicians here. Almost everybody’s doing it for all the right reasons. And take it from me, sometimes when you get too deep in it – playing eternal catch up with god knows what- you forget why you’re doing it and sometimes, you don’t even want to. Nights like yesterday and people like the ones I was fortunate enough to meet – you can’t help but being reminded. 

It feels great – to be here and to be part of it – and despite anything and everything. I’m thrilled.  

We ended up going to sleep around 4am. I don’t think we have a gig tonight so Nicolas and I are trying to go Bungee jumping today. The jump site is at a bridge - which is a 3 or 4 hour drive away from the city.

 

Lets see how and if it works out.

 

 

Kathmandu – Day 3.

 

The bungee jumping didn’t come together – and for the moment, it’s been pushed forward to Wednesday. For now, things don’t seem very optimistic – for reasons I’ll get to later. We spent the whole day walking around the city, which was great. Got to look at quite a bit of the stuff that was happening.

An interesting (and somewhat irritating thing) about Nepal, is how you have to pay certain ‘tourist’ fees – for moving from one part of the city to another. Somewhere, the idea of a ticketed museum or gallery makes a lot of sense – but just having to pay to move from district to district is a little irritating.
The idea here is that it’s not particularly cheap either. Especially if you’re like my saxophonist – who is French. One of the ladies didn’t believe me when I said I was Indian and I had to show her my license.

We spent the better half of the afternoon at a really nice café in a place called Patan square. Following which, Pranai, Nicolas and I spent round about an hour in the swimming pool near the jazz conservatory. It was a really deep pool, so we spent a lot of time goofing around diving and jumping. Which is something I haven’t done in a long time.

I met a lot of interesting people today. One of the guys who helped organize the entire tour is this guy called Nirakar. He’s a great bassist who plays for a band called 1974 AD – they play pop-rock and they’re huge here. I spent sometime talking to him and his friend today – they’re hugely into mountain biking. Which isn’t exactly uncommon for some one situated in the middle of the landscape we are – but what threw me off, is that they’re really into BMX biking. It seems that it’s pretty big in Nepal and they’re a bike-park here with ramps and all. If I didn’t have all the equipment I did, I would totally buy a bike and bring it back.

We spent the night checking out this venue called Jazz upstairs – we are supposed to play there on Thursday night (which will also be our last gig). It was a nice hole-in-the-wall kind of place with a  great vibe. They had this country gig happening with a bunch of American musicians who probably live here. It was all bluegrass – and the vocalist looked exactly like the Malboro man. It would have been in a shame if he didn’t play country.

We spent the night bouncing around the city drinking beer, talking jazz and eating momos. It sounds a little more romantic than it was. I think every one’s really overwhelmed by the place.

It’s really exhausting in it’s own way. It’s a real bubble and pretty much every one I’ve met spends all their time playing and/or getting high. Which is great, but I don’t think I’m really cut out for it. I’m repeating myself here, but Kathmandu has a real vibe and feel – and I think every one’s got a different take on it. Pranai’s in love; Nicholas digs it; Reuben is in like – but apprehensive and I am totally undecided.

Something that comes back to me is what Nikhil, my drummer from my swing trio, said to me. I definitely can’t quote word for word – but the general idea was that no one person can only be one thing. That, the idea itself defies the whole purpose of being human. I think a lot of people would disagree, but I think some personalities are really predisposed or not predisposed to doing just one thing.

The night ended badly – Pranai left his bag behind in the cab we used to get back home – and every one was exhausted and in a daze. No prizes for guessing what was inside the bag.

We have a missing passport. Fuck.

 

 

Kathmandu – Day 4

 

No sign of the bag or the passport. Pranai’s going to wait through the day, to see if the cabbie turns up with the bag – especially since there was no money inside it. He feels that there is a very good chance of it happening in Kathmandu. I’m a little more sceptical, but hopeful for his sake. We spent most of the morning lazing around and trying to figure out at what point to call the Indian consulate and what we’re going to need to do – in order to be back on Friday and play at the aman.

Lunch was great – we went out and got these Nepali thalis. They were really good and really spicy. I love spice – it makes things exciting. The food here is really cheap. There are really so many joints – with such a wide spectrum of culinary focus – that it’s hard to not want to experiment. There’s a huge cafe culture – just like up in the hills – but the only difference here, is that the food at each joint will taste and have a different feel from the next one. This is something that I remember being seriously untrue for the cafes in Goa/Dharamshala etc. Generally, if you’ve eaten at one, then you’ve eaten at them all. They’re just slightly done up places to get shit-faced – which fair enough, was probably the owners’ brainchild in the first place. 

After lunch we took some time off before our third gig – which was at this venue called Lakhe. Lakhe is a club/party area in the middle of Darbar barg – which is pretty much the most upmarket area of Kathmandu. It’s a little bit like a broader looking Harajuku – with international looking shops on either side of the road. I saw the hotel I stayed at when I came to Kathmandu with my grandfather over ten years (maybe a little more?). It hasn’t changed much. 

The gig went off great and I think every one had a lot of fun. I really did. The sound of the bass was perfect. It’s more than half the battle already won – even before the gig’s started. We played really tight – but there were quite a few small and annoying mistakes. As always, the crowd was great, even if it was a little on the thin side. I think they really enjoyed us.

There’s another huge article in the newspaper – with a big picture of me and Nicolas. I’m making a million dollar face – but other than that, I cannot fucking believe how perfect and how professional the article is. It’s so simple and to the point. A girl came in and interviewed us on the night we played at Moksh and she put down word for word – right to the fine point.

All of this in obvious contrast to Delhi with it’s third rate band of entertainment/music reporters – who can neither write nor report – and who I really think deserve to be lined up and slapped HARD. I get fucking agitated just thinking about some of the junk that people have put down.

 

Anyway, the gig went great – and tomorrow – we’re going Bunjee jumping !

 


 

Kathmandu – Day 5

 

The day definitely did not get off to the start we had intended. The intention lay in Pranai sorting out his passport with the consulate by 9.30, renting two bikes between the four of us and heading out towards the jump site by 10.30 and reaching somewhere around 4 or 5 – depending on traffic and the conditions of the road. What actually happened was that the bikes didn’t show up until 12.30m Pranai didn’t call the embassy till 2 – only to find out they only work at 12 – and we finally did leave – not at 10.30 but at 2.30.

 

The drive up was strange – in the sense that it was a drive of polar opposites. Either it was so enjoyable and so gorgeous that it made your mind want to explode – or – it was just straight up painful. Expectedly enough, getting out of Kathmandu was a little on the harsh side – a lot of traffic, a lot of smoke and a lot of dust. Once we got upto the mountains and eventually into the mountains – things were breathtaking – to say the least. The whole ride lasted about 4 hours or so with maybe one 15 minute break. The roads were pretty rough up in patches – mostly where there had been landslides. Things got a little out of hand towards the end because it started getting dark. We fell once where the road was really broken up and wet.

 

We reached the resort on the earlier side of 7. It was just about pitch black by the time we got there. The retrospectively funny part being that we almost over shot the resort. We’d been joking around about crossing the border into China – and getting held up by Chinese soldiers – when we reached the resort and told the owner about missing the gate – our little ‘joke’ was not very far from realization. A short dark 12km later, we would have hit the check post for Tibet – we were on the national highway that connects to China.

 

The first thing you have to do, to get to the resort - is cross this rickety-looking bridge that connects two sides of a valley. It is a really long bridge and it takes about two minutes to cross, if you’re walking briskly. The lower metal panels on which you walk are a little like a xylophone – there’s a little space between every panel and you can see the river raging down between the cracks. The bridge swings around pretty wildly – and about half way down I see a square platform extending out of the bridge. That’s the jump-side and it’s fucking scary.

 

In virtue of getting there so late, we have to push the jump to the morning. I was upset about having more time to have it hover around me – but it’s not like there was any choice in the matter at all. It was too intimidating to not jump.

 

I rode with Nicolas – and Pranai and Reuben were on the other bike. It was easily the longest bike ride I’ve ever had. I’m still not much of a fan – but I do understand where the fans come from. Like I said – at some points, the view, the landscape and the air were just too much to take in. They overwhelmed you – mostly with gratitude for just even being able to be part of it, in some small way. There was in the transitions between mountains and cities – some really bad industrial patches. Everything seemed to be under-construction and the amount of smoke and dust just did me in.

 

Getting back to the resort though – the place really was a gem. It’s place in the middle of a forest/hill area and it’s smack in the middle of the nature. One of those non-obtrusive, yet super comfortable places to be. We stayed in a tent for four and it rained the whole night we were there. The sounds of the water, mixed with the sounds of the river – along with all the smells of the forest made for a good night. I was pretty occupied with the idea of jumping though.

 

 

Kathmandu – Day 6

 

Jump day! Through the course of the trip – Nicolas and I had no doubts about the fact that we were jumping. Reuben had been fluctuating and when he finally did see the bridge the night before. He was fascinated but in his words, “no one in their right minds would jump off of that thing.”. Point well made, my drummer friend. Come the morning, Pranai realized that he needed to be at the embassy – Reuben decided to accompany him back to Kathmandu and both of them left around 9.30 or so.

 

Nicolas and I got briefed for our jumps round at 9.30 too. The jump master told us about jumping techniques, took our weights and made us fill in the usual forms about insurance and, my favourite part: Emergency Contacts. Nicolas had a French number listed and I had an Indian one. Good amount of help that would have been.

 

In any case, we were on the bridge by 10. It was the second time I was looking at the bridge during the day. The first time being earlier in the morning with Reuben. The peak that consolidated his decision not to jump. The gorge was really beautiful during the day and the river had a majestic-look of it’s own. The bridge was swinging like a bitch though. You could barely stand still on it.
The instructors/assistants showed up and harnessed both me and Nicolas down. We’d agreed to let me go first – but the instructors called on 63kg first anyway. They sat me down and hooked me the bungee rope up to me and asked me to come out onto the platform.

 

The platform was something that was attached to the bridge – on the periphery. It has no handles or railings and it just looks out onto the landscape and naturally, straight down. It was an insane feeling standing on the edge of it – body and arms free – knowing that I’d have to, with the force of my own muscles, jump off of it. The scene defies every survival instinct in your body. The jump master doesn’t give you too much time to take it in. The minute you’re at the edge, I just heard him go, “3..2..1..Bungee!’. And off I went – without a thought in my mind.

 

I plummeted. The jump in Nepal is the second highest in the world – and about 160m high. The drop lasts for just about 4 seconds and I kept me eyes open through the whole thing. There aren’t words to describe the sensation. It’s just a rush – one that wraps up pretty quickly though. By the time I got down, I felt like it hadn’t happened – but looking straight back up at the bridge was something. It was a half an hour trek back up the mountain to get to the resort. I don’t mind trekking, but I really wasn’t dressed for it and the terrain was a lot rougher than I thought it would be. It took half an hour to undo 4.5 seconds.

 

Nicolas jumped right after I did and he recorded both our falls. His was recorded first person because he taped his camera to his hand and pointed it face down. They’re both great videos and I’ll put them up soon.

 

We headed out back for Kathmandu and made it home around 3. The drive was the same as it was on the way up. Hellish in parts but stunning in others. My body, and I think every one else’s as well, remember the sore parts at this juncture.

 

We had our last gig of the tour at this major-jazz venue called Jazz Upstairs. I tried being excited for it, but I couldn’t get it together. By the time we got back to Kathmandu and to the venue it was almost 7.30. The best part was, it seems the guys at the venue mixed up our dates and they didn’t think we were coming. I really just felt like taking a pass. I was spent and I could barely think – leave alone play.

 

The gig went moreorless as I had imagined. On the whole, I think the band had a good collected sound – every one really liked how it went – and the crowd here really digs us. I was a real mess though and the amplifier I had kept churning out this bullshit overdriven bass tone. We played about two hours and I tried my best to just enjoy it. It was just too deliberate though. “HAVE FUN. YOU MUST HAVE FUN.”

 

In any case, we pulled through the night and I’d like to believe in style. We met a lot of interesting people – most of them who had very nice things to say about us ;). By the time we got home, there wasn’t much left of anybody. Especially me. I think I’m falling sick.

 

 

 

Day 7 – Kathmandu

 

That’s it. Full Circle. It’s 9.20 am – and I think pretty much everybody is done packing up. We’re trying to figure out how to get all the equipment together and to the airport. 6 days – 4 gigs and seeing how it’s Friday, we’ll be playing back the aman tonight and tomorrow night. I have fallen sick and I think Nicolas and Pranai have too.

 

I’m spent but I’m feeling really good and really happy. I don’t really feel like coming back to Delhi – getting back to taking care of the Masters and checking up with the University all the time. It was good being here and I’m grateful, as always, for the whole experience.

 

I got to figure out a lot out about myself, about the band, about music and where I stand. Watching other bass players – playing infront of crowds made up mostly of musicians – gives you a lot of think about.

 

Like MGMT says, take only what you need from it.

 

 J

 

 

Monday 20 September 2010

If you had to read One, this is it.



I used to have a blogspace over at msn about three or four years ago. I updated it with a neurotic ferocity – posting at intervals of no longer than two to three days. I was also given, not entirely without reason, to believe that people did pop over and give it a look over every now and then. The only problem with that blog though – available to me only in retrospect (naturally), was that pretty much every post was a recap of the day that had gone by – which I guess, is something a lot of people see as the fundamental nature of the blog – but it was just something I implicitly promised myself I wouldn’t do once I started this one. Basically, there wasn’t going to be much “So today I.. happily ever after.” Great rule for substantial posting.

Except:

 

Today, Monday 20th September - might just have been the luckiest day of my life. It’s the closest I’ll probably come to interacting with divine intervention or tangible cosmic favour.

Right up into the late evening, I was pretty much having the most non-descript Monday. I woke up too early to - rain, a postponed morning rehearsal and an upcoming test the day after. I spent most of the day escaping the three in sleep or bitching about them in consciousness. I cribbed about rehearsal because the song we were going to play (Megalopolis – Chris Potter) was doing my head in;

I whined about the upcoming test because the text on which it was based was (is) not in my possession – and neither was it online. That finally left: the rain. Well, the rain was actually great, it was just that I wanted to do nothing and stare at it. 

8.00pm: I get in the car with my saxophonist and head out for rehearsal. It’s been raining for a while and my mood is just like the weather: grey and soggy. 

A little over half way to the music school we practice at – I realise that I’ve left my wallet – with my license behind. This isn’t much of problem, except I know that it is inevitable for me to go through a police checkpoint close to the school – and seeing as how the fucking commonwealth games are going to flush on soon – things weren’t looking good. Still, game-face on, I pushed on and decided it was on the early side of 8, they weren’t going to be keen on stopping people yet. Nobody’s going to be high.

My prediction : Not So Fucking Hot.

The checkpoint is bustling – with atleast 8 cops - that’s 5/6 more than the usual. I’m flagged to stop the car almost immediately. I can just about hear Nicolas (the saxophonist) swear ‘puutaaan’ – right over my own deafening realization of the bleakness of my situation.

There wasn’t going to be any easy way out here – this was the PR kind of shit. I play with the idea of darting it but decide it just isn’t worth it. I open the glove compartment and pick up the ziplock bag full of registration certificates and insurance/pollution documents, get off the car and shove it into the head cops hand – I tell him, “everything’s in there”, and I go back to the car to get it off the road.

I inch the car ahead, try to get my words and head together but before I can get off, one of the cops has come to my window, with the envelope and has told me I’m good to go.

Fuck Me.

 “Lets GO”, say Nicolas over the more deafening sound of thrilling relief.

The usual protocol at check-posts is always, always: license first – everything else after.

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If that wasn’t enough – 

 

Cut to about 11.45pm: A seemingly productive rehearsal has concluded and Chris Potter’s Megalopolis has gotten off to a fine and functional, but somewhat misunderstood, beginning. It’s been raining hard the entire time. I very hesitantly decide to let Nicolas drive home, because I’m not remotely keen on pushing my luck any more. Though he owns a bike in Delhi, which he takes out all the time, it would be his first car drive in India – and his first time in a right handed car. France is all left. Regardless of this though, he had his international license and I had squat.

We head back out to the car and I realise that i’ve left my keys inside – I lean the bass against the back of the car and I head back in. Still playing with the idea of whether I should drive or not. Inside, (drummer) Reuben's packing up what equipment's left out and he tells me I look worried - I smile and I decide to just let Nicolas drive.

I grab the keys, toss them to Nicolas, sit in the passenger seat, help him with the wipers and headlights – and as we back out of the driveway, I feel like he’s going over a speedbump which I never noticed before. I figure it’s just taking him time to adjust to the drive and he's grinding the curb. I look out of the window to see Reuben screaming.


He's saying one word over and over: ‘B…!”


Oh. My. God. No. Fucking. Way. Shit. SHit. SHIt. SHIT. 



   (11:50pm: my Mind - the Hindenburg)


I dart out of the fucking car to see my bass lying on the wet floor with dirt treads all over it. It looks like Road kill. I die on the spot. I just ran over my bass. It’s life flashed before My eyes.

The four of us gather around it – I feel the look a crowd would give a kid’s parent after they let them do a sprint across the highway. I didn’t even want to look inside. I unzip the soft case excepting to see a wooden train wreck – but the bass was intact and everything was still .. intact.

The drive back home felt like an eternity. Nicolas drove great, but the rain was coming down so fucking hard, I could barely see a thing – and all I wanted to do, was get home, setup, plug in and see if I still had a bass.

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3:20am: It’s still raining – and the bass is fine. I checked every part of it. The G-string’s suken into the bridge a little, so the action’s gotten a little lower – and when I did set up the bass, the entire tuning had gone down by a step and a half. It’s going to be a while before I can breathe easy about it. I have this cartoon image of playing a certain note and the whole thing is going to disintegrate infront of me.

 

… Big thank you to the Cosmos today.

 

Man oh man.

 

 

 

Monday 13 September 2010

Warning: Extremely Selfish Post



If you listen to and have a wide vocabulary of jazz, or really any form of music – then maybe you can sympathize with the familiar situation of some one asking you what your favourite song is. Or to be fairer, atleast your favourite album or artist. If you’ve done your listening – the hypothetical naturally being operative - then the question can be staggering – in the face of the plethora of not only talent, but just evocative material out there.

What I have noticed though, is after a considerable amount of time – and ofcourse this process is one that is subject to evolution – the musicians I know and the listeners I know, manage to find certain artists that really just cut through. Now I can sympathize with the idea that really ‘choosing’ with a capital C, your favourite artists is really quite a self-indulgent and self-important act. But maybe in an ideal situation, or atleast personally speaking, the act is not public until some one asks – and making the choice isn’t just making the choice, insofar as a personal preference – but instead: a clear indication that something in that music speaks to you, or brings something out in you.

It’s one thing when some one says their favourite composer is Miles Davis, because that’s the thing to say; or their favourite bassist is Ray Brown, because again, that’s the thing to say. But it’s a whole other idea, when the person at hand goes out there and listens to a lot of material and then returns to where they started. The basis on which the big names are the ones that usually cut through as favourites isn’t devoid of reason. They cut through simply because they speak to you.

I know enough people who would downplay jazz – and that’s fine. I am in full awareness of the temptation to be romantic – but this transcends that.

I’m not really talking even talking about music as much as art altogether. The actual discovery of a book (passages in a book), or a painting or whatever your medium of choice is not exclusively material. The relation between the work of art and the perceiver of it is : intimate, unique and inimitable. When you find something that doesn’t let you Go, it’s worth either enjoying it – or figuring out why you’re still listening, reading or watching. Ideally : both.

It is about self-discovery – and whether the emotions or sensations that you experience when engaging in something are communicated to you by that work of art, or whether that piece of art brings it out from inside you (something that was already there)– is a question worth asking – and is fully indicative of the complexity of the transaction.

Enough developments in science can now tell you, that I don’t see/hear/feel the same way about the same things as you do. Whether one sees that as an assurance of idealism (everything is in your head and the supremacy of the subjective experience) , is a secondary topic. I remember in my third year of college, I studied a text by Martin Heidegger – called Origin of the Work of Art. It would be immensely helpful if I could remember a single thing about it – but what I do remember, is that for Heidegger art was a dynamic agency. It was seen as independent of the work of art and the artist. I know this is redundant – but you should go look it up.

I digress. What got me writing this was me thinking of who my favourite composers are. I can think of two, that cut through everything for me. The first being Bill Evans – and the second, being Pat Metheny.

Evans is a pianist and Metheny is a guitar player. On a very personal level, I subsume both under the same categories – even though their approach, style and era are have considerable amounts of distance between them.I love Bill Evan’s piano style. Miles Davis said that his delicate playing sounded like crystals falling down a waterfall (I misquote slightly). It’s an odd metaphor, but it’s scarily accurate. What that says about me, is that I like delicate and controlled playing. 

Pat Metheny, who I’ve been listening to a lot lately – and who is really sparking this off for me, writes these heart wrenching melodies and when I listen to them, it’s like melancholic ecstasy. Drift has been working on this tune called Question and Answer – the head or melody for it, makes every musical fibre in me lose the plot. His other album with Charlie Haden, who is one of my favourite bassists, called Beyond the Missouri Skies, is a guitar – bass duet. It’s musicality has the same reaction on me. I don’t understand what it is about his music that does what it does, but somewhere it’s reassuring to feel that surge. 


Question and Answer - Pat Metheny